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Totter, Too, Part 3



A little while after the exploring and teasing, Tammy found something on her calendar. "Hey! I have an appointment with my therapist."

"Okay...?" Cruiser said slowly.

"It's a doctor. I had some issues. Saw her once a week." She placed their breakfast on the table and sat down. Cruiser took his slice of muffin and sat on his little box.

"Now, she just sees me every four months or so." She took a sip of tea. "I can't wait for you to meet her."

"Me? At your doctor?" He pointed to the TV across the room. "I can stay here. Watch more War of Pacific Fleet video!"

Morgan had presented the sylph with the military history DVD set as a gift. Figured the kid ought to know what they were pretending to do when they played Battleship.

Tammy had worried that the explosions would give him nightmares, or make him fear the game. The only thing it did was inspire him to make sound effects as he called out shots.

"No," she said. "I'm not leaving you here all alone."

"I can stay with Mildred!"

"Mom would love to have you, sure. But I want Peg to meet you." She placed a finger on his shoulder and looked into his face. "I'm proud of you, and want to show you off."

"Okay," he said.

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Peg was an older woman, with soft features and wide shoulders. Her eyes were never judgmental, and no one could be as supportive without saying a word.

Tammy always thought people would find her motherly. At least those people that weren't raised by Mildred.

She entered the room and sat in the overstuffed chair. Cruiser peered out of his carrier at the woman across the coffee table.

"Oh!" Peg said. "I was going to ask what you've been up to. But I see. Him?"

"Peg, this is Cruiser."

"Hello, Peg."

"It's nice to meet you, Cruiser. Is something wrong?"

He shook his head. Tammy smiled and explained. "He's afraid of doctors. I rescued him from a bad situation."

Tammy felt a little guilty about spending her hour talking about her pet. But Peg just nodded and listened. After all, Cruiser WAS what her life was about, at least at the moment.

Peg offered both of them cookies from a plate on her table. Tammy opened the door and set the carrier down. Cruiser eased out, selected a cookie crumb, and ran back inside.

She smiled and lifted the carrier to her lap and went on with the story.

"And, well, the nightmares aren't happening as often, now, so that's a good thing."

"It is!" Peg said enthusiastically. "I dare say you're just what the little guy needs."

"I think so!" Cruiser said. It was the first time he'd spoken in half an hour. Peg smiled at him and nodded.

"So. Have you considered sex?" she asked Tammy.

Tammy would look back at that question with some humor. She stared at her therapist for a moment. Then she put her hands on either side of Cruiser's cage. It was as if she was trying to cover the ears of a youngster when a dirty joke was being told.

"With him?" she whispered.

"I don't think so," Cruiser said from his open window.

It took Peg a moment of effort to keep her face straight. Then she stood up and walked over to her bookcase.

"No, not for the two of you, not together." She ran a finger across a row of DVD cases with very tiny labels.

"The only sex he's ever known has been rape. Either as the rapist or the victim."

Tammy gave a small gasp. She'd heard him admit to committing, but never even thought of Cruiser being...

"And on TV, they say that's wrong. For humans, anyway," Cruiser said. Peg shot a look at Tammy.

"He's becoming a fan of cop shows," she said. "The procedurals are over his head, but the idea that there are crimes, and that crimes are punished? He likes that."

"Of course," Peg said. She found the case she was looking for. "What you need to learn, Cruiser, is that it's wrong for sylphs, too."

"It is?" He sounded concerned.

"It is," Tammy confirmed. She turned the cage around so he was looking at her. "We're not saying you did anything wrong. You were in the possession of...bad people. They did wrong when they forced you and the other sylphs...to do bad things."

"Oh." He thought about that. "It wasn't bad, then, but it's bad now?"

"It was always bad, Cruiser," Peg said. "Don't misunderstand. You did a bad thing. But it wasn't your fault. We don't blame you, we blame the assholes whole owned you."

She put the case down. "This DVD has some information about sex. It was created for people who have never had... Well, never had sex for fun."

"Fun?" Cruiser asked. "Like Battleship, fun?"

"Not quite," Peg said. "Although there are couples that keep score... But aside from that, you need to understand that other sylphs are not your enemy. Not automatically. If Tammy is ever going to be able to let you see other sylphs, you kneed to understand that.

"You need to know that they're other people, with value, and dignity and so on. You can't just fight or rape or kick them. And you shouldn't expect them to do that to you."

"Okay," he said.

"And until you can be trusted with others sylphs, you have other needs."

Tammy and Cruiser looked back at her with blank expressions.

"There are," Peg explained, "instructions on masturbation on the disc, too."

"Oh," Tammy nodded.

"What? WHAT?" Cruiser asked.

"You may want to start the disc playing, then leave the room for a while," Peg told Tammy.

"Do you... really think he needs it?" she asked.

"It's dangerous for him to have a girlfriend right now," Peg pointed out. "And you're the only woman in his life, so-"

"Uh...no."

"Okay, then. I'd suggest you have him watch this a couple of times, then come back and we'll see what he's learned."

"Okay<" Tammy said. "Okay, okay, okay, okay." She took the DVD up with two fingers and slid it into her purse. "Should... I buy some porn for him?"

"No, no. We want his socialization skills to improve. Not suffer from outrageous expectations.

"This does have some people being intimate, but it's far more gentle, respectful and mainstream. Realistic, if you can use that word for scripted sexual relations on camera."

Tammy opened her mouth but nothing came out. "You might," Peg said, "want to watch it alone, first, so you know what's on it? So if he asks questions, you'll know where they're coming from."

"Uh huh," she said slowly. She glanced at the carrier. Cruiser looked back blankly. "Well, if I'm responsible for him, I supposed I'd better."

"Oh, come on," Peg said cheerfully. "You've got your doctor's permission to watch smut. Do you want me to write it as a prescription?"

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Tammy put the carrier down in the cage. Then she went back to her bedroom and put the DVD by the TV there.

Then she procrastinated. She made sure Cruiser's food and water were topped off. That his game was charged. That he could reach the DVD remote. That the next disc for the Pacific series was in the player.

The sylph watched with growing amusement as she found increasingly nitpicky things to occupy her time with.

"Tweezers?" he shouted.

"What?"

"Tweezers. Do you think you want to clean the carpet, one loop at a time?"

"Uh..." He broke out laughing. She realized she was being silly and joined him. She even dropped prone and lay next to the cage.

Cruiser put a hand on the mesh. She touched it with the tip of a finger. "What are you afraid of?" he asked.

"I just never got into...porn," she admitted. "It's always seemed...dirty to me."

"Okay," he said with a shrug. "Don't watch it. Plug it in up here and I will. And I won't ask any questions until we go see Peg again."

"No," she said after a moment. "No, I don't want you to do that. If you have a question, you need to talk about it. Before you forget it, or before wrong ideas take root.

"Cruiser, you can't just say, 'okay, rape is wrong.' You need to understand why it's wrong. And, I guess, to understand what rape even is."

He cocked his head questioningly. She sighed. "An upperclassman tricked me into signing a promise to have sex with him. Then later, he showed me what I'd signed and demanded I come across. He said I couldn't say no, because it was in writing.

"Plus, he said it wouldn't be rape because I had given my consent."

"But it was a trick," Cruiser said. "Does that count?"

"He almost had me convinced," she said. "But no matter what they say, if a person says no to sex, it's still rape."

"Oh, I knew that," he said with a smile.

"You did?"

"Yeah. Every rape the Lords made me perform? The other sylph was always saying no. No, no, no, no, no, no!" He still smiled, but Tammy saw that it was a very fragile expression.

She realized that she could probably shatter him at that moment, with one or two poorly chosen words.

Instead she opened the cage and lifted him out. He sat in her palm and looked up at her.

Tammy saw such trust and fear in that little face. She kind of wondered what he was seeing right now.

"Let's leave the DVD for a bit," she said. She climbed up into the sofa and held a cushion on her lap. She placed Cruiser there and leaned over. "Let's just talk about what sex is, okay? I think it'll help us discuss the movie when we watch it."

"Okay," he said. The trust blossomed in his expression, though the fear didn't quite go away.

"I'll go first," she said. "Um. Okay, my first time was in the back of a Camero."

She ended up sitting with Cruiser through the Fun Not Fear presentation. He had a few questions that she tried to answer.

Tammy drew the line at the masturbation portion, though. She left him alone with the remote and plugged her earplugs in.

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Peg checked her appointments and smiled. Tammy was coming by. Cruiser wasn't exactly her patient, but it was the closest she'd ever gotten to using her skills on a sylph.

She was looking forward to seeing into the sexual side of Cruiser's adaptation to life with Tammy.

Then they arrived.

Tammy looked like she was short of sleep. Cruiser stood in the window of his cage, holding the bars and smiling out.

"Well, hey, you two!" Peg said cheerily. "How's things?"

"God awful," Tammy muttered. She placed the cage onto the coffee table, along with the DVD she'd borrowed and threw herself down on the sofa. "He never stops."

"Never?" Peg asked. Cruiser nodded his head. "Well....it's, uh, something new for him. So, some initial, um, enthusiasm would be expected."

"Enthusiasm?" Tammy screeched. "That doesn't come anywhere CLOSE! Day and night, home, car, office-"

"Office?" Peg's eyebrows rose. "Well, perhaps we should discuss, um, decorum?"

"Oh, but it makes him so happy!" Tammy said. She covered her eyes with her hands. "When anyone says, we don't do that sort of thing here, he gets so sad."

"Um," Peg played for time, thinking furiously. "Maybe if you kept the windows shut?"

"Sure," Tammy moaned, "but everyone within five feet can't help but hear it."

"Ew!" Peg said automatically. "Oh, wait. Sorry, that was judgmental. But it's still... Well, as you say, it makes him happy."

"Yeah, but sometimes I just... I want to rip it out of his hands!"

"You do?" Peg asked.

"She does," Cruiser nodded. "Want to. But she doesn't do it."

"Of course not," Peg said to the sylph. "That would hurt you terribly!"

"Yeah," he agreed. "But she does drag her feet when the batteries die."

"Batteries? Peg asked. "Where do batteries come into play?"

"For the machine," he said, confused.

"What machine?"

"The pocket karaoke machine Mom bought him," Tammy said. "The worst is when he doesn't know the words, can't read the display, so he just shouts, literally, 'SOMETHING, SOMETHING, OOOH!' until he gets where he knows the words."

"Miss Peg?" Cruiser asked. "Are you biting your lip?"

"Mmmm-mmm," she denied.

"What's wrong?" Tammy asked.

Peg's gaze dipped down to the sex education video. Tammy and Cruiser watched, then looked at each other in confusion. Right to that moment, Peg had started to suspect it was an act.

The sheer, innocent confusion on both their faces, though, told her it wasn't a trick they were playing. She didn't break out laughing, but she did sink down into her chair, breathing deeply and biting her tongue.



Totter, Too, Part 1
Totter, Too, Part 2
Totter, Too, Part 4




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